A quote from the movie Under the Tuscan Sun has stuck with me the past year and a half. It is, "You know what the most amazing thing about divorce is? It doesn't kill you. You'd think that it would, but it doesn't." At times if feels like death is a better option than having the love of your life betray you and reject you, but after the initial sting, which can last for quite a while, it is possible to bounce back even stronger and wiser than before. But total healing can not be had without the grace of God.

The key to sleeping alone, after divorce can be found in As Good as it Gets, with Diane Keaton and Jack Nicholson: Sleep in the middle, don't have a side, that way it doesn't feel like someone is missing. I have certainly taken this advice, and I'm becoming quite good at it.

Mommy, do you want another baby?

This was the question posed to me by D, my five year old son tonight after laying his head on my stomach. Several other people we know have had or are having babies this year, so it is a hot topic. First D said he was listening to the baby, and when I replied, "There is no baby in there," he asked how I know. (Trust me I know! unless we have another immaculate conception.) I said, "Well I need a husband to make a baby, and I don't have a husband, so no baby." Then he asked me if I wanted another baby, which is something that I haven't really decided. I mean I don't want one now as a single mom, but I don't know what God has in store for me. I am healthy, I am childbearing age, and I believe it is possible that I may remarry, but that doesn't even mean I will have more babies. Fortunately for me, it is out of my hands and in God's.

In-laws, out-laws or x-laws?

So what do I call the in-laws after the divorce? They will no longer be relations-in-law to me...but they remain aunts, uncles, grandparents, and cousins to my kids. It's a quandry. I have seen some refer to the former in-laws as xmil (ex-mother-in-law), xbil, xsil, and xfil. I guess that will make me an xdil (ex-daughter-in-law). ..Hmmm, sounds like some kind of medication.