Anger Management

I have discovered a nastiness that dwells inside me called anger. The past year (or two, or three) has given me many a good reason to be angry, and I have held on to this darkness and turned it inward. What happens to a person who holds in their anger? Well on Christmas Eve, I learned one of the effects: an emotional "snap". I got to my breaking point, and couldn't hold it in any more. So I have been advised to write, to write, and to write some more. But of course I must not write it all here, because it is far too personal, and dangerous. I must write without censure, and empty myself on pages to rid myself of the rage I feel towards M and towards the whole stinking situation. I have tried this once already this week, and it has helped me greatly, I felt lighter afterward. It is not good to hold in so much emotion, it can make one sick. Really physically sick. The important thing, of course, is to release this rage in healthful, non-harming of others, kinds of ways. I am exploring those avenues...