One year anniversary

Friday is M's birthday. Saturday will mark the one year anniversary of his final departure. One year. Sometimes if feels like a decade, sometimes it feels like a month. Divorce proceedings will get underway soon, M said he would have some papers for me to peruse when I get home from the beach. I'm not entirely convinced he will, but if not, he has been informed and I will just go ahead with it on my own. No use dragging this out any longer.

Last year I was so angry. This year I'm just under a cloud of sadness and dread. I hate not knowing what will happen, not knowing how things will turn out. I've never been through this before, so it's hard to know what to expect. It is my hope that we will continue to work out the arrangements of our divorce in a civil manner, that is my prayer.